Touched.

So, it aint even my birthday yet and I'm all shooked up.

Seriously it's like I'm in the mood already.

In the mood to do what? You ask.

That's a good question but you don't ask why the sun is in the mood to shine bright, right?

Or why the turtles have tattoos or their skiing adventure

or why the penguins love to sing to the blue red moon a lullaby tune.

I just thought I'd write to some people that helped me and been there for me during my poly years. Poly years are not as easy okay. This is the stage where after finding your identity in sec sch, you got to branch out of your comfort zone and make new friends in poly who like you for who you are. And then there are classes that want to strangle the life out of you and makan place that tried to conquer you so it's good to have friends to fight back with you.

My friends have done so much for me that not a lot of people know so I just want to appreciate my unsung DD heroes now :)

Renee: My honey, you were the first person I knew during the first day and look at how far we've come now! Haha from joining NRA together to sharing about our dreams to lead worship and to now working together in awfully chocolate.. All I can say is I'm so blessed to have you in my life. Your encouragements, your laughter, your stories and just you- brighten up my life.

I also remember the times where you'll cry or i'll cry but you always comfort me and I just wanna let you know that I'm here for you as well! We've been through a heck of a time these 3 years but I know we're stronger because of it all. Thanks for being so strong too even when it's not easy. Every time you cry I just want to hug you til things get better but then I might suffocate you so haha I'll lend you my shoulder anytime. ANYTIME. And you're never alone, you will always have me :) thanks for hearing me out whenever I had things I needed to get out of my system or even when I don't know what to say you'll understand somehow! I love you.

Doreen: My shopping buddy! Haha I'm recalling the times we'll go crazy over shoes and clothes and online shopping and they make me laugh. It's good to know I can be my crazy self when I'm looking at the things I like and you won't judge me of my silliness. In fact, you'll go silly with me! Haha esp during sales and all eh? Heeeeee shopping soon, now that you've ended work!

But above all, you've always been there for me and thank you for helping me with everything! In sch, out of sch, at work, out of work, you're someone I know I can count on and really thank you for always giving. Thank you for listening to me too when I've troubles and what not and I want you to know I'm here if you need a listening ear or a hug or a smile :) text me on your emo days and I'll send you a msg full of smiles to cheer you up! haha. I will also support you in whatever path you'll take because I believe in you! I love you.

Hannah: Who's bad?!? Thanks for crapping with me and doing lame stuff together and not have to worry about how weird we look hehe. You tickle my funny bone when we're being corny and all that. And thanks for all the encouragements you've given to me and for praying with me as bad times come but we have our friends and family and God always. Thanks also for reminding me through verses and for keeping the faith. I also believe God brought all of us together for a reason and so we can fellowship and build each other up! And I know you will do well in the future, so squash any negative thought that holds you back because you've got lotsa potential! You don't have to prove anything to anyone, proud of you already :) Jia you for IBP and most of all, enjoy it! (I still owe you a dress!) I love you.

John: Hey you! Even though we aren't close but thank you for all the support and encouragement you've given since I've known you. You're really a good friend to all of us and nobody is perfect but you try your best and so I thank you so much :) Also, you are so SO freakin' talented, I know you'll do amazing things next time! Just don't keep thinking you're not good enough because you ARE even better than good! Just wanna let you know, just like how you will fight for me.. I will punch and kick any one who tries to hurt you. Marquis and I will growl hahahaha and scare off whoever you want us to. I love you.

My life has changed knowing all of you, and I can never thank you enough.

You have all impacted my life and will stay in my heart 4ever.

Honestly sometimes I don't know how you put up with me always being l8/blur/forgetful/dumb/sleepy/HUNGRY and etc

but thank you for staying with me through thick and thin.

Just want you to know that you can count on me as well, just as how I can count on you :)

Thanks for the 'bday' dinner yesterday!!!

I've got a feeling

that sleeping will cure things.

I wanna curl up in my comforter and sleep for a long long time.

But I've only got 8 hrs left til I need to wake up haha GG no more long sleep. No matter..

Short and simple prayer to get you through the days you feel like you need an extra supernatural kick.

Dear Lord,

Please give me the energy and patience needed as I go about my day. Thank you for being there for me so graciously too- where I am weak, You are strong. And lastly, thank You for the faith because I know that through you, nothing is impossible!

Amen.

The new world blew me away, but it wasn't enough to make me stay.

Things can shake me but I've my foundation set right.

I wish for more courage in my heart at night.

But I'll fight.

I'll bring the light.

We fight in our mothers' womb to get out,

we fight unknown bogey monsters in our childhood,

we fight unknown trust and identity issues in our youth,

and I'll keep fighting now.

Tired, yes, but not beaten.

Afraid, maybe, but not alone.

Never alone.

INSPIRE

I've never really seen it this way before, it's like the veil is falling from my eyes.

I love the drapes and chiffon and layers and sheer pieces.

Wish I could wear clothes like that every day.

Maybe if I moved to Tuscany...

So it all begins with a hat..

Bought a new dress with cool back cut-outs!

Though now I think I could've just bought a black dress and cut it out myself. Speaking of which, I have been happily cutting and making some stuff. I would want to sell them and create a label one day (out of cutting things hohoho) but first you'd need people to buy b4 it's considered a successful business?

So... it doesn't count when you get your pet dog to be your first customer?

Okay no problem. I have a strong feeling my neighbor's dog will like it.

So,
the weather's cold and the sky is dark and call me a cynic pessimistic dreamer but it's at times like this that make my mind go to the worst case scenario: zombies.

Yes, mean ever-hungry brain eating rotting zombies.

And I like to run ideas through my head if my estate was ever taken over by zombies and the alternate route of escape I can use to run out of clementi and to somewhere ulu like holland village and stay in the windmill building with food supply until the Umbrella cooperation and Alice kills the zombies off. (Resident Evil) and I might have some fun while surviving too (Zombieland) and plant sunflowers while using pea shooters to help defeat the zombies. (Plants VS Zombies)

Haha I like zombie related stories more than dracula and ghost movies maybe because I know I have a higher chance of surviving if the zombies ever come to my house.

I'll be ready with boogie traps for the zombies (haven't thought of what kind of traps yet) and when I'm too overwhelmed I'll jump out and sky dive out of my window into the swimming pool and escape to punggol. (haven't thought about how I'll sky dive out the window when my windows are grilled either)

Maybe I should have just ran away when I know zombies are coming instead of staying home with boogie traps. Hm.

So anyway today on my way home I saw a fence that was not completely touching the earth and I was thinking how if I needed to escape from zombies by this fence, I can dig and crawl out alive. Brilliant. I stored that thought in a file somewhere in my brain just in case I needed to escape from raving monsters.

Although that's quite scary if I become a zombie by eating some weird medicine doctors give people for testing and they have to quarantine me and my house then I will remember that I can dig and crawl through the fence and off I go!

Then I might go out for ice cream and have no idea why people are running away from where ever I walk to.. so I run with them hoping I don't get bitten by a horrible zombie! *shudder*

Wonder why the people running in front of me look behind and don't stop running.

I don't see any monster behind me but I just run with them. There is safety in numbers!

We all have bad days :( >:[

Wish life was easy.

What a joke, can't believe I said that out loud.

Life isn't easy.

What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, right?

It makes you stronger but I feel like I've been fighting so much until I don't feel the push now but more of the fatigue that comes when you use your own strength.

I like working at shop fronts.

It gives me a chance to interact with people and making them smile if I know I've met their needs. It keeps me busy with things and I get to make choc and all that shizz and eating it and getting sugar rush here and there. But at the end of the day you're just tired and then you head home on a crowded bus and then you rush home to make sure the side gates don't close and reach home to feel the warmth and eat your dinner. And just when you start to unwind, mom comes at you and does not stop railing you to do this do that clean up your clothes and yes I know I deserve it because my room is a huge mess but not today. Please, just not today.

I'm tired, I feel like I could keep sleeping on and on for days.

Not die, silly.

Just sleep for a really long time. Where maybe I'll get a chance to dream a sweet dream.

A dream where people needn't shout at people when they have perfectly reasonable hearing of each other. Shouting just makes everyone tense up, don't you see?

Maybe God will even give me a prince charming by the end when I wake.

Don't see this as a sad or emo post. I'm just talking here.. yes, perhaps ranting it a bit.

I guess when I'm tired it's so easy to feel down because that's when you let your guard down and every little act or word gets right to the core of your being.

This song cheers me up somewhat though, when I'm feeling blue.

A mixture of the guitar and his deep voice and the words.

Hope it'll lighten up the mood of this 'dark and brooding' blog post hahaha

"She's seen her share of devils in this angel town

And everything's gonna be alright

Rock-a-bye"

Wilderness Downtown

the wilderness downtown (click and watch!)

go down memory lane and watch this cool interactive video!

it is so so so awesome I tell you!

The idea!

The way it's done!

The music!

The video!

Must go to watch okay!!!

And they actually have singapore's location thingys so enjoy!

P.S it takes a lot of loading power so may take some time. patience. good things come to those who wait.