Thursday, February 24, 2011

Mini playlist

1) Park Kahi- Come back you bad person

2) Little joy- Unattainable

3) Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros- Home

4) Led Zepplin- Whole lotta love

5) Jaeson Ma ft. Bruno Mars- Love

Home is wherever I'm with you

Decisions, decisions, choices, doors, opportunities, windows, knock, think, think, unknown, tunnel, future.

I've been thinking about my future recently and how does anyone ever know what you want to pursue as a degree/career? Does a ray of light beam down to show them the way when they are looking for universities online, do they get dreams about their future that enlightens them on the way, is there a textbook on your own life that somehow I am missing and so missing out on 'how to make your life go the way you want' chapter?

When I was in secondary sch, they said enjoy your youth.
When I got into poly, they said enjoy being a student.
Now in a blink of an eye, they pull you out and say, okay grow up you have burdens and responsibilities of the world to shoulder. make some money and make your parents proud.

I want to do what I love everyday, making nonsense videos and photoshopping and whistling all the way home but I guess that's selfish of me because it won't get me good money to give the people I love a better life.
Money and greed is evil. If it were like a vampire, I would want to slay it like Buffy would. Y'know, I sometimes have the random urge to take 100 bucks and run to Utah and grow oranges in a farm house and chop wood for fire every night and sing camp fire songs. Just sometimes.

People are more afraid of the unknown then they are of bad choices.
I'm no different. I play all the 'what-ifs' in my head and get drowned in the uncertainty.
We all get that sometimes.

It's times like these that I choose to pray even more. For guidance and wisdom and for just the peace in my heart. Knowing that God is in control of it all. This bible verse always encourages me when I feel like this and I hope it encourages you too.

"For I know the thoughts that I think towards you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope."
Jeremiah 29:11

pic credits: margaux lonnberg

Thursday, February 17, 2011

cynthia vincent 2011 lookbook


the twelfth street

Making me wanna be a boho girl with blonde hair and drapey clothes with some light shining on the back of my head.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

I was shooting a scene in my new film, No Strings Attached, in which I say to Natalie Portman,

“If you miss me. you can’t text, you can’t email, you can’t post it on my Facebook wall. If you really miss me, you come and see me.”

I began to think of all of the billions of intimate exchanges sent daily via fingers and screens, bouncing between satellites and servers. With all this texting, emailing, and social networking, I started wondering, are we all becoming so in touch with one another that we are in danger of losing touch?

It used to be that boy met girl and they exchanged phone numbers. Anticipation built. They imagined the entire relationship before a call ever happened. The phone rang. Hearts pounded. “Hello?” Followed by a conversation that lasted two hours but felt like two minutes and would be examined with friends for two weeks. If all went well, a date was arranged. That was then.

Now we exchange numbers but text instead of calling because it mitigates the risks of early failure and eliminates those deafening moments of silence. Now anticipation builds. Bdoop. “It was NICE meeting u” Both sides overanalyze every word. We talk to a friend, an impromptu Cyrano: “He wrote nice in all caps. What does that mean? What do I write back?” Then we write a response and delete it 10 times before sending a message that will appear 2 care, but not 2 much. If all goes well, a date will be arranged.

Whether you like it or not, the digital age has produced a new format for modern romance, and natural selection may be favoring the quick-thumbed quip peddler over the confident, ice-breaking alpha male. Or maybe we are hiding behind the cloak of digital text and spell-check to present superior versions of ourselves while using these less intimate forms of communication to accelerate the courting process. So what’s it really good for?

There is some argument about who actually invented text messaging, but I think it’s safe to say it was a man. Multiple studies have shown that the average man uses about half as many words per day as women, thus text messaging. It eliminates hellos and goodbyes and cuts right to the chase. Now, if that’s not male behavior, I don’t know what is. It’s also great for passing notes. there is something fun about sharing secrets with your date while in the company of others. think of texting as a modern whisper in your lover’s car.

Sending sweet nothings on Twitter or Facebook is also fun. in some ways, it’s no different than sending flowers to the office: You are declaring your love for everyone to see. Who doesn’t like to be publicly adored. Just remember that what you post is out there and there’s some stuff you can’t un-see.

But the reality is that we communicate with every part of our being, and there are times when we must use it all. When someone needs us, he or she needs all of us. There’s no text that can replace a loving touch when someone we love is hurting.

We haven’t lost romance in the digital age, but we may be neglecting it. In doing so, antiquated art forms are taking on new importance. The power of a hand-written letter is greater than ever. It’s personal and deliberate means more than an email or text ever will. It has a unique scent. It requires deciphering. But, most important, it’s flawed There are errors in handwriting, punctuation, grammar, and spelling that show our vulnerability. And vulnerability is the essence of romance. It’s the art of being uncalculated, the willingness to look foolish, the courage to say, “This is me, and I’m interested in you enough to show you my flaws with the hope that you may embrace me for all that I am but, more importantly, all that I am not.”

- Ashton Kutcher

Can you see the bright light?

Tinie Tempah ft. Ellie Goulding - Wonderman (Bare Noize Remix) by Bare Noize

Monday, February 14, 2011

This week,

Check out Park Kahi's debut! She is like my favoritest singer/dancer ever! She has that natural groove y'know? Besides Britney Spears (quit judgin')
Plus plus plus this video reminds me of Black Swan! Haha but kudos to how they put her and her other side together nicely and rather believably! Watch her MV and move to the music~

And since we're on K-POP, here's a picture of one of the best looking guys in asia! GD & TOP (!!!) TOP looks good in any hair styles and clothes? He's like one of the few artists I'll go gaga over man.

And speaking of best, this is one of the best light photography I've seen! So much effort, I would imagine. Makes me wanna go running around with light sticks around trees and humans at night. Enjoy more of the art here ;)

Excerpt: 14 Feb, 10:45AM (Title: GIVE LOVE)

'If you've really prayed about it and sure about it, then daddy don't mind helping you pay for it. How much is it again? 300 a month? Okay I should be able to help out, just that won't have so much extra pocket money for me but I'm okay ah. I don't want to see you struggling and having to worry about all of these.'

When I heard it, my heart stopped for a beat.
It's like my prayers have been answered. I didn't know how much of a burden I was carrying until he said it and I suddenly could breathe so much easier, could feel so much lighter.
I was really stressing over how much I would have to work and all just to cover the cost that I lost some sleep and hair and tears.
Words couldn't say how grateful I am to this hardworking man who was driving me to school this morning, in the middle of his work schedule.
It's almost like I can feel myself crying in joy and relief, I didn't expect such support and help.

I was so overwhelmed I could only choke out, 'Thanks daddy.'

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Wanna hold your hand

I'm loving Planet Blue! It's the kind of stuff I would sell in my shop when my shop gets up.
That's right, for the millionth time, my shop will be up by april, I kid you not.
I'll post more updates here just in case there's any one who is still interested and sweetly believing in me. Bless your patient heart. :*

But just take a look at the jewelry! Unpolished gems at its best!
I love the raw feel of it. Like just dig up any quartz and wire it into a ring and there might be a wedding. Speaking of weddings... Valentines' is coming up!

Hahaha how cute are these monsters and their lines?
Even monsters need a lil' love~

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Please, don't forget.

It's so easy to forget where we first began,
how we were like before our lives changed and we grew up.

It's so easy to feel alone,
but didn't you hear someone speak so gently to you once that He'll never leave?

It's so easy to feel tied down by things,
just give a little routine and responsibility and watch us sweat.

It's so easy to want to kneel down and give up,
because standing is always hard to do when you're carrying it all by yourself.

But then remember how it was so easy then to believe everything and everyone,
the days where we felt true freedom because we were secure in Love.

Remember how alive we felt,
with the fire and passion raging in us.

Remember how we felt like we could do anything,
because our strength comes from a Joy.

Remember how when we'd fall,
we can pick ourselves up knowing gr8er things are yet to come?

Remember the tears, sacrifices, dramas, hope, faith, excitement, visions, anticipation, worries, hugs, laughter?

Close your eyes, remember that Love?
It was there back then..

It is here right now.

Thursday, February 3, 2011


I've had fun thinking and coming up with 4 characters to wish people like:
kai xin jiu hao. or gei wo ang bao followed by a xie xie ni ni!
What, I'm not bringing disgrace to my family! I'm being.. new.
Yeah right.
Anyway eating the reunion dinner with my family made me realize how much I treasure and love them and would do and give anything for them because they are the best I could ever ask for.
Please treasure every single time spent with your family because we all grow up and soon have our own lives where they might not be that big a part of anymore and... distance forms, before you know it.
I believe that no matter how 'bad' you think your family is, they still love you and would die for you and will accept you for who you are.
Like how mine accepts me for being so ticklish and sleepy and lame and busy and even crazy things like puking when I see puke. (Which is horrible by the way. Like when marquis pukes and I wanna clean it, I feel like throwing up too so in the end Shawn or Daddy has to clean it, sorry guys. Not trying to get my way out of cleaning the mess, I swear)
And how I'll accept Ezekiel's monstrous burping (control, Eze, control) and Shawn's tiger teeth (which he's so shy of) and Dad's little (ahem) belly and Mom's dancing. (just kidding mom, you dance really well)
And smile a little even if you're all decked out in red.
Red's sexy, like Michael Jackson's red jacket (bless his soul)!
Dear unborn son,
Please note that your name will be Luke purely so I can say "Luke, I am your Father" when you question my authority.